Fear.

Fear. I am finding out that is the main reason behind why I don't do what God is telling me to do. I like to label it other things. I like to say it isn't practical. I like to say it isn't safe. I like to hide behind things like, how it will effect my kids. But in reality, when I really get down to it, how better to teach them about Jesus, and his love than to have them experience and show it first hand, even if it hurts a little? I like to think that I can protect them from any type of hurt, and explain grace and selfless love to them. That way they can know what it is, but still be in our little house and not be exposed to that hurt. Then I am reminded that Jesus was actually involved with the people who hurt. He touched the people in pain. He met them where they were. In being called to be like Him, no less is required of us.
There are some things around us that are probably the most practical ways ever to allow our kids to be on both sides of giving and receiving that type of love. I also now believe that their lives can only be richer and fuller for it.

(Again, not so sure it makes sense to anyone outside of those that live in my head) blah